Fear

(Fear) This was the moment I feared
 (Fear) This was the moment I feared
 (Fear) This was the moment I feared
 (Fear) This was the moment I feared
 Reoccurring dream, I was falling
 Droppin' from something tall
 And Jesus name that I'm calling
 This is pretty deep how I'mma decorate the city street
 Little bitty pieces there's really gonna be some chalky drawings
 In this dream I had, when I land
 I can taste the blood, I can smell the concrete
 And I can feel my bones crush on a calm street
 Dark and desolate, my heart I never get
 Another beat I'm gonna be other head to split, my hell is credited
 Where the red is in, I'm down and dead admit in light I'm dreadin' this
 If we're created of God than predestination
 Should not be looked at as odd, when we're blessed to wake in-
 Side of a dream, like I've been here before
 And we sum it up with some french expression like we didn't hear the lord
 So I'm hopin' and prayin'
 That I won't be opened and sprayin'
 In real life and it's just a dream, and it's not a thing that can sway my view
 But my fear is that I end up layin' and ready for decayin'
 What I thought was a dream now it's Déjà vu
 (Fear)
 If I fall will the angels catch me?
 Or in it all is it my destiny?
 Is there a sound when the ground absorbs me?
 Or a dream tellin' me my story
 I called up my mother, but who answered my brother
 He said "she real sick but I'm gonna put her on just tell her you love her"
 My heart it just fluttered when mama picked up she would utter
 "Who is this?" I said "Donnie", but she thought I was another
 Didn't even know me, and she's not an oldie
 It's the lupus or epilepsy
 Maybe the psychosis solely
 "This your son I just called to say happy birthday"
 Not really knowin' me hit me in the worst way
 Then she said "Oh yeah, little Donnie, how you doin' in school?"
 I said "I'm 42, mommy!"
 I give my arm, leg, leg, arm, head if that means my momma get better
 Toughest thing to swallow is when someone who raised you, they gonna forget ya
 I'm feelin' sadness, I'm feelin' anger
 Steady praying for a higher power to come down and change it
 Rearrange her cause my fear is that the sickness in her mind
 In due time it'll make her son a stranger
 A stranger to the one who raised us
 Nameless to the one who named us
 Back to the place where it all began
 I'm seeing heaven but I fear it's the end
 Taught to have faith in God
 Breakin' bread then we bakin' K.O.D
 Makin' plenty then spread it abroad
 Wash it down with a glass of Shiraz
 I try to walk the path of the righteous one
 But this life is one, that's full of strife, let's run
 To the mountain top
 What I'm 'bout to say if suckas starts to thinking this holy name
 I denounce then stop
 Man, I'm just sayin'
 I do a whole lot of prayin'
 And I wonder if it's listenin' to Aaron's nightly whisperin'
 'Bout mom in the tithe she's weakly payin'
 I know it's a blessing, that I raised kids cause I got skill
 And thank God that gangbang thing didn't bring me hot steel
 Now my mom's worse and a lot ill
 My fear is that this God I'm prayin' to for my mother is not real
 Extinguish me from this world of fire
 False teachings taught by liars
 Prayers that go in an empty asylum
 No salvation from this messiah