Relief Next to Me

I miss you now
 I guess like I should have missed you then
 My body moves
 Like curtains waving in and out of wind,
 In and out of windows
 I can't untangle
 What I feel and what would matter most
 I can't close an eye,
 I can't close an eyelid
 Now there's just no point,
 In reaching out for me
 In the dark,
 I'm just no good at giving relief
 In the dark,
 It won't be easy to find relief
 And I'm not proud
 That nothing will seem easy about me
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need
 I'll tell you now
 I guess like I should have told you then
 The thunder moves
 Like damn drawers slamming in my frame,
 Slamming in my framework
 I can't untangle
 What I know and what should matter most
 I can't close an eye,
 I can't close an eyelid
 And now there's just no point
 In reaching out for you
 In the dark,
 I'm just no good at giving relief
 In the dark,
 It won't be easy to find relief
 And I'm not proud
 That nothing will seem easy about me
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need
 But I promise this
 I won't go my whole life
 Telling you I don't need