Tell the Truth

I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 Wanted to
 It's so sad to see
 You're working me over
 Oh Lord, again?
 I'm so glad to be partially sober
 I've lost too many friends
 How can I compete with the man that I promised you?
 I tried so hard to bend
 Don't tell me who I was or who I want to be
 You're doing it again
 I can tell you saw all my love
 When he came into our lives
 Does it hurt inside
 To know that I'll be there for him?
 I swear that I will fight
 'Til I die if that's what it takes
 But for now I'm alive
 And I'm standing tall for heaven's sake
 I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to
 Wanted to, to
 I've thrown ambition to the fire
 Hope melted away
 You let your promises expire
 And I swear that you'll never hear the end of this
 I can tell you saw all my love
 When he came into our lives
 Does it hurt inside
 To know that I'll be there for him?
 I swear that I will fight
 'Til I die if that's what it takes
 But for now I'm alive
 And I'm standing tall for heaven's sake
 These are the moments where I feel my heart skip a beat
 Trails of adulthood, only ice below my feet
 These are the moments that I feel your hand fade away
 These are the moments that I wish that I had fucking stayed
 These are the moments that I wish that I had put the pills down
 These are the moments that I wish that I was in the ground
 These are the moments where I wish that I could tell the truth
 The choices I made, this is me living without you