Survivor's Guilt

An eye for an eye
 Leaves the good men blind
 I'm the last one alive
 But I'm burdened by the night
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 I wish I had something to say
 To make it better
 Another notch to the rope
 Another burden to my crown
 Depraved, disengaged
 There's nothing here to stop me from an early grave
 Tie the noose, follow through
 It's either join the ones I love
 Or suffer as the Devil's muse
 An acquaintance of the hangman came to see me today
 Naïve to disarray
 You should've seen the look in her eyes
 When she saw I lost the light in mine
 Clara my dear
 I'm not a man filled with many regrets
 I'm not a man filled with many regrets
 But I wish I had taken my life instead
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 Yeah!
 Hated to the bone
 Yet she sees through my breaking nerves
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 I opened my heart to a stranger
 Connected through woe, tormented angel
 She came to terms with who I am
 I won't let this become my final number
 Their weight comes crashing down
 It's like I bear their conscience atop my crown
 That sits so badly on my head
 Fuck it, take me now
 I watch their roses bloom and wilt
 I wish to join them
 This is survivor's guilt
 Fuck it!
 
 Let me bleed like a weeping wound
 Take me instead
 I'd give them all their lives back for my death
 Everyone I've ever loved, the dead in the mud
 Father forgive me for the damage I've done