Life in Drag

I tried to keep a steady hand
 Tumble blocks, start again
 I held your side when you let go
 And you came back well-rehearsed
 In holding your own
 A broken seal, a past self known
 Retrieve my heart from the Alamo
 I need it here to touch your skin
 Reconfigure, deconstruct, and begin
 The centers shrunk between your eyes.
 Sharper corners, broader sides
 And I felt weak in woman's wear
 Genderfucked, dilated, stuck holding a stare
 You taught me how to guard myself
 To keep my heart unscathed in health
 I think you got carried away
 Reached out your hand
 It carried you away
 
 Well, it's life in drag
 Well, it's life in drag
 You wore an armor that covered your face
 (It's life in drag)
 I wore hands high to show truce and embracing
 (It's life in drag)
 Who taught you how to hate yourself?
 Who forced you to confide in spell?
 Mistook 'pathetic' for empathy
 Cast a stone at the foe and the stone hit me
 And I held your hand in ritual to show disarming
 While you were a weapon inside yourself, inside your body
 I can't pretend
 I can't conceal my apprehension
 When pressed against the callous of your palm
 I reconciled
 Because you couldn't feel me there
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 And you wore binary like a badge of fucking honor
 While I struggled dealing with the loss of yet another
 Life in drag