The Scope Of All Of This Rebuilding

You cut our ropes, left the umbilical
 And now I carry around this weight of broken hope
 And I can't retrace and I've lost my hold
 And blame myself 'cause that is all I've ever known
 And your face shows doubt
 (When your head feels the wake of the sorrow)
 Swore to me that you could live without
 (Then the beg turns to take, turns to borrow)
 Help me down, I just want this out
 (When you bend, when you break, when you follow)
 So, you cut me out
 Then you cut our ropes, left the umbilical
 And now I'm lost and I can't take this path back home
 Send a birthday card, leave a one-way note
 I lied, I'm sorry, this isn't easy, I don't know
 And you'd ask me to "open your walls to this"
 But I'm scared, fingers broken
 And ill-prepared to let this drag out
 I can't make this better
 It fell out of my hands because
 I just wasn't built to hold on
 And I can't remember names its been too long
 And I can't find your face in the crowd
 I made a promise, said my eyes would stay shut
 Through something called the scope of all of this rebuilding
 I broke when I entered, displaced from the center
 I can't find my way around this
 My wounds healed while my fingers fixed