In The Car Outside - Abridged

I'm in the car
 I just needed to clear my head
 She's in the house
 With the baby crying on the bed
 She's got this thing
 Where she puts the walls so high
 It doesn't matter how much you love
 It doesn't matter how hard you try
 We got a place
 With a fence and a little grass
 I put this film on the windows
 And it looks like chapel glass
 But when she turns
 It's like the shadow of the cross don't cast
 No blessing over our lonely life
 It's like waiting for a train to pass
 And I don't know when it'll pass
 But I remember when she used to set the room on fire
 With her eyes
 Swear to God
 It's like a flood of grief and sorrow from a haunted life
 When she cries
 Like a train
 It's a lot
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 I dropped a line
 To a flickering high school flame
 We laughed about
 All the ways that our lives had changed
 She's up the road
 About 35 miles north
 Got two little boys in school
 Just had a real bad divorce
 And in a moment of weakness
 I told her if she ever needed a helping hand
 I would lend
 Swear to God
 It's like the part of me
 That's screaming not to jump gets lost
 In the sound
 Of the train
 It's a lot
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 I'm trying hard
 Not to cave
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 Swear to God