To: Chicago (feat. Andy Jackson)

(Here I go again, heroine)
 Layin' face down on the sidewalk
 Here I go again, heroine
 Layin' face down on the sidewalk
 Here I go again, heroine
 Stomach double knotted
 Dizzy even up the light
 As my bones turn to chalk
 But every time I tried to pray
 The windy city blew my faith away
 For all my could-haves and my used-to-be's
 You think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs
 The fever broke the anchor made us lost kites
 A tether free amphetamine you
 Started sleeping on the train
 To obliterate the pain
 When the frost began to bite
 Every time the morning came
 I found another me that I could blame
 For all my could have's and my used to be's (and the darkness inside me)
 You think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs
 (in every hopeless tragedy)
 For all my should have's and my hope to be's (hoped to be's)
 I think it's time I found myself some new disease
 At one point I thought maybe I should warn her
 But such information is best reserved for our dark corners
 So I lock the bathroom door and started forgetting my name
 I annihilated all my pride to usher in my shame
 For all my could have's and my used to be's (and the darkness inside me)
 For all my could-haves and my used-to-be's (and the dark consists of me)
 You think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs
 (in every hopeless tragedy)
 For all my should haves and my hoped to be's (hoped to be's)
 I think it's time I found myself some new disease