Remember to Forget

Dignity in hand
 Trapped inside a vacuum
 Hostage in wonderland
 I try to run slipping and sliding
 Stumbling blindly off the cliff
 What if - adrift - I can't get back?
 Numb I can't understand what's been done
 By the other hand
 This is now it's not the same
 The anguish calls to stake its claim
 Sharp in relief time creeps on by
 I try to make my peace
 With what is and what might be
 Home in another time
 Memories persist without rhyme
 Sounds trigger thoughts trigger pain
 Whispers of doubt still remain
 Clinging to regret
 I struggle to resist
 Scars that won't forgive
 Can't I remember to forget?
 Paranoia building a wall
 Naïve misconceptions
 Feeding a future I cannot recall
 Chaos as I think and feel
 Groping blind for the truths that I conceal
 All alone upon my throne
 Intentions fail to lift the stone
 Wear the badge of resentment proud
 I try to make my peace
 With what is and what might be
 Home in another time
 Safe and secure of some things
 I could be assured
 Walk the slippery slope of the past
 I choose to dress up my burden
 Call it salvation as it drags me down
 I try to make my peace
 With what is and what might be
 Home in another time
 Memories persist without rhyme
 Sounds trigger thoughts trigger pain
 Whispers of doubt still remain
 Shackles rust as I release the past
 Free from bitterness
 Without looking back I can remember to forget