Swimming Lessons

The hallway door slammed shut
 The closet lights turned off
 Another sleepless night to come
 After I close my eyes
 Count some sheep
 Force myself to sleep
 Again
 Goodbye
 I hope to see you tomorrow
 Please promise to never leave
 Never leave, me alone
 1991, early morning, July
 These blue skies has seen it's better days
 I'm left with endless stomachaches
 Where do I belong?
 I must belong elsewhere
 Anywhere else but here
 These four walls are our fault
 These four walls are
 Dive deep into the ocean
 And listen to the waves calling out my name
 But not today
 I don't care to swim
 I don't care, I won't feel ashamed
 I'm gonna die happy
 The way I want it to be
 The way I want it to feel
 My anxiety, my anxiety
 Will always, it will always destroy me
 Do you feel comfortable in your own skin?
 Am I worth every hard rotation of the clock?
 I feel like I should ask myself these questions
 I miss when I was a kid
 I had feelings that I will never forget
 Do you feel comfort in your own skin?
 I'm not perfect, oh I'm not perfect
 I'm not perfect
 But I'm perfect enough