I'm Not Scared

I'm not scared of you this time
 And when you pick up the phone, I'll stay on the line
 And I'll do more than breathe this time
 And I'll let you in, at least I'm gonna try
 And it felt so strange when I said it out loud
 That I look for redemption in everyone else
 But funny thing is that I always hated church
 Spend so much time looking that I forgot to search
 And to be a woman is to be in pain
 And my body reminds me almost every day
 That I was made for another, but I don't wanna know that
 'Cause it happened once and I always look back
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 In my sentience, I wear your judgement like a crown
 Couldn't look you in your eyes, so I look to the ground
 Then I took the drugs again last night
 But pills have never brought me any kind of light
 My eyes are heavy, all I wanna do is sleep
 But I need to make money and I need to eat
 And loving never made anybody I know happy
 And loving only seems to make you bruise and to bleed
 And to be a woman is to be in pain
 And my body reminds me almost every day
 That I was made for another, but I don't wanna know that
 'Cause it happened once and I always look back