Handzum $Uicide

Deranged from the blood stains all over my brain
 Just another day, this killer train is ridin' down your way
 I'm fucking starting to unthread, these voices that's in my head
 I got a romance with the dead that's sleeping in river beds, uh
 Damaging my organs, to me, they just ain't important
 I'm a different kind of breed, the one that don't even breathe
 The one you ain't gotta feed, just rob and take what I need
 Fucking product of the $uicide, fucking spawn of Satan
 Cuttin' on my wrist, while these women fornicating
 I'm debating to take my life, forsaken by sacrifice
 Mistaken for something nice
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 Pile of ashes is my final form
 Got a roll of duct tape, and a rag soaked in chloroform
 Flies swarm because my body's warm, shatter the urn
 See me blowing in the wind like a scattered storm
 Grey matter splattered in front of the corner store
 Saw that when I was 14, walking around the second ward
 Send him to the seventh floor
 Ended up with floor seats to something I didn't want to see
 Now that scene is in my head every time I go to sleep
 When I dream, I rest in peace knowing I'll be dead
 Earth will be my final bed
 Poison me with lead, inject it into my fucking head
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 Pressure, pressure, how do I dear deal with all this pressure?
 In my way, it's in my lungs, it's in my thoughts, it's in my brain
 A guilty conscience some might say, I'm paranoid and locked away
 A withering weed in the garden that God wasn't supposed to save
 Locked up in an open grave with a King James' Bible
 With a couple quotes erased, but kept the ones that made me smile
 Do I really see everything for what it is?
 Or is it that I can't see anything with such a bad case of denial
 When I die, then put my body in a boat and light it on fire, push me out to sea
 And let the wind do what I might-a, no matter whatever I feel about anything
 It wasn't until I burned all my bridges, it made my future brighter