Erratic

I've been having a hard time with myself
 Counting the beats of my bad pulse again
 Then it turned into a nightmare
 I've been tossing and turning in my bed
 Sleep deprivation worked me overtime
 Until my body hit the decline
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so erratic
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so erratic
 I was a misfit in my youth
 I thought I knew everything but I admit
 That I used to wallow in shit
 So what was there to love about the thrills
 Other than the time it killed
 I'm motionless, still I fear the regress
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so erratic
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so erratic
 Now, I've got a big lump in my throat
 And it may take some time to swallow it
 I'm still trying to get used to it
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so erratic
 Down, over the low
 There's always something on my nerves
 That gets me so
 Here lie the pieces to my puzzled weakness
 A term that made me so erratic
 It made me so erratic