Is Happiness Just a Word?

Run
 Run
 (Go ahead and)
 Run
 Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
 With all the blood and scars
 My mouth will hunt you
 With fear, I appear
 Nothing will stop me
 You crave the creature in me
 Shattered, I will capture you
 So run
 My family don't understand what I go through
 Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through
 You ever been in such a fog, you don't know you?
 Never being able to do the shit you're supposed to?
 I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to
 Wouldn't wish it on anybody that I'm opposed to
 There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
 Basic neurobiology isn't close to it
 I'm watching life as a spectator
 I can't help myself, even though I possessed data
 It's not a part of my spirit to want to test nature
 You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager
 I have trouble retaining new information
 Familiar scenes starting to look foreign, derealization
 Everybody tired of being patient
 Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement
 Constant rumination just exacerbates it
 To the point where I can't even barely narrate it
 I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
 But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated
 Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
 With all the blood and scars
 My mouth will hunt you
 With fear I appear
 Nothing will stop me
 You crave the creature in me
 Shattered, I will capture you
 So run
 My head don't work, the meds don't work
 But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
 Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work
 Maybe I'd rather be dead, dead don't hurt
 Realization of an inherent emptiness
 Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist
 Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
 I've fallen 'cause I've been on the precipice
 Maybe it's my mama's possible regret
 Maybe it's a neurological neglect
 Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
 The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect
 But maybe I'm being too complicated for you
 Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
 The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
 Paxil, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you
 I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence
 But how the fuck that help a neurochemical imbalance?
 Why would you tell a person that they were childish
 Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?
 I always feel foggy somatic detachment
 It's like my body isn't connected to actions
 It destroys everything that's affected the fragments
 I don't have nothing but senses and sadness
 Darkness comes beneath the stars
 With all the blood and all the scars
 Nothing will stop me
 You crave the creature inside
 Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
 With all the blood and scars
 My mouth will hunt you
 With fear, I appear
 Nothing will stop me
 You crave the creature in me
 Shattered, I will capture you
 So run
 Run
 Run