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Praying for myself
 These thoughts I try to hide
 I have faith in me and hope this will survive
 But it's tearing me apart
 I can't hear the words by which I guide
 So I must ask again, who will carry me
 I can not deny that nothing can defend
 From the helplesness that's cutting deep inside
 And I can't prevent the thought that nothing's real
 Seems I've waited years for this day to end
 The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me
 Are not there behind the face staring back at me
 The anger and the pain of knowing where I am
 I have come so far and I cannot return
 Nothing I can do that I have not done
 No words I can say. No truth left that I can see
 So must I let this end, and everything falls apart
 Before I live my life as I have always done
 Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
 Something I can hope for
 Something real that I can see
 So nothing falls apart
 So this does not end
 I cannot return
 I can't start again
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 Nothing to deny, nothing to defend
 From the helplessness, it's cutting me so deep inside
 And I can't prevent the thought that's nothing's real
 It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end
 
 Praying for myself
 These thoughts I try to hide
 I have faith in me and hope this will survive
 But it's tearing me apart
 I can't hear the words by which I guide
 So I must ask again, who will carry me
 Nothing I can do that I have not done
 No words I can say. No truth left that I can see
 So must I let this end, and everything falls apart
 Before I live my life as I have always done
 Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
 Something I can hope for
 Something real that I can see
 So nothing falls apart
 So this does not end
 I cannot return
 I can't start again
 Nothing I can do that I have not done
 No words I can say
 No truth left that I can see
 So must I let this end, and everything falls apart
 Before I live my life as I have always done
 Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
 Something I can hope for
 Something real that I can see
 So nothing falls apart
 So this does not end
 I cannot return
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 I can't start again