I'm Afraid That I'm Not Supposed to Be Like This

Well I'm afraid I'm not supposed to be like this
 Like I was born in a land where no serpent hissed
 And I have waited a long time for Your kiss
 Well I have felt that they'd all take offense at me
 And so a fence I have built to protect the seed
 But all the bricks will secure its mortality
 I have been seated in circles and stood in disgrace
 At the noted intention to be in place
 And I have seen that one man saved the human race
 But it took His life and it took His faith
 I have risen from ashes and fed on flames
 But even so I still fear I have played a game
 And it seems no one else is as sick and depraved
 I have heard that I'm not supposed to be this way
 And still the stones that are lifted fall down to stay
 But I keep doubting and think one will strike my face
 He's been promising me something more than pain
 Where the cost is grace and my loss is gain
 And I have chosen because there is no other way
 I either wallow in shame
 Or humble myself and be saved
 And be saved