I Don't Know

This right here
 Is one of the realest songs I ever wrote
 And it's dedicated to anybody
 Who's ever went through a rough patch in their life
 Just know it's not about who you are
 Where you came from
 It's about how hard you fight
 Yeah
 Drinkin' on this lonely road
 Thinkin' "Man where the time has gone"
 Feelin' like I got an empty soul
 With no place to call a home
 Now do I blame everybody else
 Or turn around and blame myself?
 Or look high up into the sky
 And ask the Lord for a little help
 Yeah' chasin' dreams
 What I'm thinkin' "What's it really cost?"
 Shut up money's good but look at all the time lost
 Lot of fans' bright lights have me feelin' like the man
 But I know that doesn't really matter
 'Cause I know my son just really misses dad
 Missed him growin' up and I can never get that back
 Apologize now but it doesn't change the fact
 That as a father that's the point that hurts the worse
 One shot wish I woulda known
 With every blessin' there's a curse
 Lookin' in the mirror' time to make a change
 Drinkin' all the time just to ease the pain
 Back against the wall, people pray I fall
 Do I stay and fight or do I end it all?
 Do I have a choice, do I have a voice?
 Do I let it go or do I make a point?
 Can I make a change' can I numb the pain?
 Is it worth the fame?
 I don't know
 All these angels on my road
 The window pane is all I know
 I take my time and rock n roll
 But I can't get my mind off I don't know
 Aim for the fame, am I diggin' my grave?
 This bottle of shine says I don't know
 It's the name of the game
 Like a moth to the flame
 This bottle of shine says I don't know
 I've been tryna figure out for the life of me
 Am I ever gonna make it, will I ever be
 Everything that they told me I wouldn't be?
 Can I make another song that'll better me?
 All these hours on the road will they ever lead to gold?
 Will they ever take my soul to the bright light?
 Will I ever really know
 What I really owe for the night life
 And the life' and the bright lights?
 See, I leave it all at home when I pull away
 Look at pictures on my phone when I shoulda stayed
 Sip a bottle of Jack to pull the pain away
 And make another mistake when I shoulda prayed
 These whiskey sours are killin' on my tomorrows
 And I'm tryna make it better
 But all of my time is borrowed
 Had 'em lost in a world full of money and debt
 And I hate all the weight that I put on my chest
 When I leave my son at home think of all that I miss
 I can never get it back and I feel like a mess
 Did I chose life in a row boat?
 Goin' up stream solo
 Did I really bring a knife to the gun show?
 Or the light to the rainbow
 Yo, I don't know, don't know
 Don't know, don't know
 All these angels on my road
 The window pane is all I know
 I take my time and rock n roll
 But I can't get my mind off I don't know
 Aim for the fame, am I diggin' my grave?
 This bottle of shine says I don't know
 It's the name of the game
 Like a moth to the flame
 This bottle of shine says I don't know