Default Status

I am here after all this time
 Still so much to see
 Draw a line, take a step back
 Where else would I be?
 Just one push and then I'm away
 Such a unique individual
 Always seeing the pros and cons
 But I'm still here stuck in the middle
 I know adventures are all passing by
 And there's more to this I know
 So many ways to go
 But when it gets a hold of me I just can't see another way to go
 Well, I've been searching for something for so long
 So long
 But when I feel it in my heart it ain't right
 So let the pendulum swing
 Don't think I will ever, no I'll never find it
 So, come on and I'll take you to my default status
 I know that it's me but I just cannot enter the circle
 Well, what can I do, when it's my turn to choose?
 But when I cannot believe my mind
 Instead of making the time should I forfeit, retry?
 Because it's wrecking my heart inside and I just don't know
 Should I try or just let go?
 Should I try or just let go?
 Searching for something for so long
 So long
 But when I feel it in my heart it ain't right
 So let the pendulum swing
 I don't think I will ever, no I'll never find it
 So, come on
 And I'll take you to my default
 Searching for something for so long
 So long
 But when I feel it in my heart it ain't right
 So, let the pendulum swing
 So, I don't think I will ever, no I'll never find it
 So, come on
 And I'll take you to my default status