Missing You

This that old school vibe
 Talk my shit
 Missing you
 Tell me where the road turns
 I used to want a place where niggas understood my heart
 Until I found out solitary peace is what I want
 Spirit is everything and all our energy is God
 The universe handed a gift somewhere in the stars
 I get anxious when I think about my destiny
 Niggas is waiting, lack of patience never set me free
 Generational hatred broken once I rest in peace
 Can't be complacent, I got unborn mouths to feed
 Am I naive taking control of what's next for me
 Playing creator like I'm knowing what's best for me
 What's in my favor will be taken selectively
 Its God's plan, I'm just moving successfully
 That's the type of shit I'm on right now
 Its God's plan forreal
 I been reading a lot about that shit. Just about
 Manifestation in everything, what's meant to be is meant to be
 That's how I look at it. I'm trying to bring in positivity
 With myself, for everything
 Only so much control a man has
 I'm done with that bullshit
 I'm done with that negativity I gonna keep it going
 I used to want a milli till I made like fifty bands
 But it ain't make a difference, money never made a man
 I'm looking back at old pictures, look like Peter Pan
 Nobody hold me down quite like the ceiling can
 I still want a milli, different motivation though
 To see my people pay for school without them taking loans
 And see my niggas see they vision without oath
 That's why I'm saving money, never see me saving hoes
 If ignorance is bliss, its time to start stepping up
 They tell me my complexion really isn't meant for much
 Darker the berry, so refreshing, its a sweeter punch
 Don't let nobody try to tell you you ain't street enough
 Don't let nobody try to tell you you ain't keeping up
 Trust the spirit, mask off once they speaking up
 Hate is fear and love is fog, but I don't see enough
 That's why I'm gone out the window, middle finger up
 That's really what I'm on lately
 I'm just tryna do better with everything, like
 I woke up today to do a little cardio, take my seamoss
 Trying to stay active
 Lord knows niggas will try to keep you down
 Hate to see you winning
 Breaking even
 Is there a story behind that
 Yeah. Just learning a lot last couple years
 Learning a lot this year especially
 In regards to what
 Everything. Like growth as a person
 You know, growing myself as a person, as an artist
 Realizing a lot that I dealt with at a young age
 And when I say breaking even
 I picked that name because
 On the surface level it seems like I'm just trying to break even with this music shit
 You know, invest some money in it you wanna get that money back
 But its deeper than that really
 I realized that
 That whole expression "hurt people hurt people" you know like
 You take a loss, you wanna get back
 Its all about as people we wanna retaliate even if its not direct
 So you might've dealt with something at a young age and
 As an adult you do the same thing to somebody else
 Cuz you think you bouta get even
 Somebody take one of yours you wanna get back
 Like an eye for an eye
 Type shit even if its not direct you don't even realize it
 You know, so
 Its really about me coming of age
 I just turned twenty-two I'm now realizing a lot of things
 About myself. About life