Can't hide my feelings

I'm an angel so I'm fighting demons
 Living in the present got questioning this life I'm given
 They talk the talk but don't live the meaning
 I feel like my life's been wrapped around a colosseum
 Guess I'm A gladiator
 They say God gives big battles to the strongest warriors
 So can only guess when it's revealed that my callings major
 And I don't know why they gassing me
 They saying how I'm goated but I haven't done a thing that's equating to that
 Still Tryna make it
 Fully caught up in this race doing equations
 I'm getting ahead of myself I gotta pace it
 Take my time but still there's no procrastinating
 It's just me and I in this world take what's mine
 Never to your front doors where I'll take the fight
 The way it was was an eye for an eye
 The law was a guy for a guy
 And he came and changed a guy for the guy
 Came trade his life for our lives
 Just for me so I can't fail if I try if I do he'll be right by my side
 So I'll open up and let you know here's how I'm feeling inside
 I'll shed some light to you here's how I'm feeling at night
 Cause some nights I fall in my bed and I'm feeling to cry
 All of my life I've lead alone at this point I'm just tired
 I know my mums over there and she loves me so much
 And I love her right back too so much
 All I'm doing is for her she deserves so much
 Outsiders ain't got you man as much as your own blood
 People offering a hand but I don't want it
 Cause I can't trust them in return don't know what they wanting
 Their heart is it pure or at heart are they rotten
 Got to guard my heart out of it flows problems
 You ever felt in a place being lost and you know you need God
 So you think to hit him up
 Ye I never found no allah I never went to no mosque
 But I found Christ I met him in church
 It's him I give the glory for my life how it's turned around
 He telling me break I'm on the gas so I'm burning out
 Caught up in the building whilst deep inside breaking down
 I be listening but there's nothing new to learn about
 What I talk though I try to live it
 I'm set free but still feel imprisoned
 But I know it ain't meant to be like that
 I'm born again meant to be free mentally feeling like I'm trapped though
 So I'm just Tryna talk my pain on a paper
 I'm just Tryna tell the world bout a saviour
 If you wanting something back keep your favours
 We going to the top won't see you later