hangar

Come pick me up, I'll pay for gas
 There's nowhere that I want to be
 And you'll drive fast, and I won't ask to pick the music on the street
 And we can talk about whatever, and pretend that we won't tell
 Even pretending to ourselves
 You think it's easy where it's darker
 And I like to feel my heart
 Speed up with my eyes shut
 And feel we're doing something we should not
 So for a time I spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
 Just trying to guess when we'll get caught
 This place is suffocating
 I'll still be here in five years
 Like I promise I won't, through the wind, in your ears
 But nothing feels this urgent
 And these nights are still important
 And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
 Every time I feel alive, it will feel just like this
 I'll get the things you did, forget the boy I kissed
 By the hangar, and you'll both be strangers to me
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 Tonight it matters that how I'm not a person who you want to see
 'Cause I like to talk about the hospital and go when I don't need it
 Just to show the world I feel it, I only ever did it once
 And it was selfish, it was fun
 But I can't bring myself to
 Hate me for wanting a break
 I'll still be here in five years
 Where I made every mistake
 16 turned to disappear
 For one week, and a half
 You know it's all an act
 'Cause there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
 This place is suffocating
 I'll still be here in five years
 Like I promise I won't, through the wind, in your ears
 But nothing feels this urgent
 And these nights are still important
 And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet