Pressure

And it was just me
 Had nobody else
 No way to touch me
 When yo bag was up
 You didn't do much for me
 I'll fuck with you now
 The way you fuckt with me
 Before I was up
 I don't got no memories of playin catch with me dad
 Tell my op's I said its good
 Cause when we catch um its bad
 I block out some of my past it's to
 depressing and sad I been askin GOD
 How long he think this pressure will last?
 Ya saw me starvin And you never thought to throw me a bone!
 And don't offer me no blunts
 I only smoke weed alone!
 Plus a combination of
 Bad environment And broken home
 I always get this feeling
 Like I'm somewhere
 I don't belong!
 All the pressures Adding up
 Way to often i feel overwhelmed
 It Don't matter where they put me
 I'm still gonna be down
 I pray for my continued freedom
 Everyday with my health
 Kickin somethin everyday
 I'm in a battle with myself
 Don't fake no love with me
 Cause I'll be able to see threw the lies
 If I didn't have this shit right here
 I would just keep it inside
 Sometimes i wait for responces
 when I'm speaking to GOD!
 Its been years & I still morn my dog
 Like he recently died
 How long?
 How long before this pain gonna start to go away?
 Lost almost all my dogs
 My heart got broke that way
 Put my trust in snakes
 My heart got cold that way
 I needed support from y'all and no one came
 Cause it was just me
 had nobody else
 No ways to touch ne
 When yo bag was up
 You ain't do much for me
 I'll fuck with you now
 The way you fucked with me
 Before I was up
 I dont got no memories
 of Playin catch with my dad
 Tell my op's I said its good
 Cause when we catch um its bad
 I tend to block out some of my past
 it's to depressing and sad
 I been askin GOD
 how long he think this pressure will last?
 Pay attention to it baby
 Please I can't afford too
 When I was facing life
 I never seen you in the court room
 When they let me go
 I had parole I ain't report to
 You seen me with money
 Not what I had to resort too
 Somethins cookin in the kitchen
 And it isn't soul food
 All this treachery I swear
 That shit done took it's toll fool
 I guess you related to me more
 when I was broke dude?
 He just want the clout so he gonna
 Say my name around them one fools!
 Grew up in the trap momma
 complainin about the internet
 My brother got the L
 I sure wish I could get him out
 Might still have some sanity left
 Had I took a different route
 Hard to think I used to live this way
 By how I'm livin now!
 People disappoint me they be
 to much on that selfish shit!
 Ran off on the plug?!
 You had all that work?!
 Why ain't ya just sell the shit?
 She be bringin up all those problems
 I can not help her with!
 I was in the pin when I heard my dog died
 I really fuckin felt that shit!
 And it was just me
 Had nobody else!
 No way to touch me
 When yo bag was up
 You didn't do much for me
 I'll fuck with you now
 The way you fuckt with me
 Before I was up
 I don't got no memories of playin catch with me dad
 Tell my op's I said its good
 Cause when we catch um its bad
 I block out some of my past it's to
 depressing and sad I been askin GOD
 How long he think this pressure will last?