Loafting

Time went by don't know why I'm trying
 Took too long things went wrong now you're gone
 I wish we met when we were young
 No longer now, we burned up like the sun
 Tainted body, mind & soul
 I wish we'd known before we lost control
 I waste my time on you & no matter what I do
 you're the voice inside my head
 I'm so sick of all your lies & no matter how hard
 I try I think it's time for this to die
 The silence it's haunting
 My demons inside
 They creep up
 They taunt me
 I can't choose a side
 I kick and I scream
 A means to an end
 We started as lovers
 But ended not friends now
 You
 You wanted him to be me
 What do I get from this
 Still the same old shit
 Not suffering but
 Damn where do I stand
 Am I God or am I man
 You understand?
 Are you lying awake
 Does it hurt you to see
 This fucking cross I bare
 So bow down to me
 This hell is reserved
 My palace is burnt
 A longing for freedom
 A place to desert me
 Fuck
 This house that we built
 Felt like a prison you found
 No one holding you in
 But you still burned it fucking down