Not Going Back

Running, running away
 All those feelings, all the pressure, I can't take
 Maybe some other day
 I'll feel more solid with myself so I won't break
 All my life I waited for the time
 To find a girl just like you
 Taken by the good first times
 All those sealed lies
 I find myself off pattern
 Who am I?
 Happy as fuck
 I don't like feeling so safe in this matter
 Would you mind a little trouble?
 I guess it doesn't matter, I'm not going back (Not going back, not going!)
 This is my pattern, I am never in control
 She's too fine, it's time for goodbye
 'Cause I don't wanna let her
 Realize the price to be by my side
 Unless she is a crazy ass fool
 Who am I to judge her?
 I'm just talking about my chaotic pattern
 I can't help it
 I guess I feel alive when it hurts me
 And it doesn't matter, I'm not going back (Not going back, not going!)
 I keep forgetting I am never in control
 And there is the issue with my temper again
 Will I get a grip and start to change this game?
 Running, running away
 Can't pretend to be in love with you the same
 Maybe when I'm ok
 You'll be gone and I'll regret it all the way
 But it doesn't matter, I'm not going back
 I'm not going back, I'm not going back
 I'm not going
 I'm not going
 It doesn't matter, I'm not going back to that