Rewind

No one can save me
 I hid the key that locks my mind
 I've lost it many ago
 I can't seem to let go
 As my descent into madness continues
 I recall all the times I've died
 It's fucking permanent
 What I see but not for me just for them
 I have a chance to change my fate
 I plant the seeds then grow them
 As monotonous and boring as it seems
 I didn't choose this life it fucking chose me
 And when time moves back
 I understand that I have purpose
 And that it's up to me to save a life
 And as I try and try what i'm about to
 See in this shed
 Will haunt me until my death
 I'll resurrect till I change your reality
 I won't let you live in my head
 It will haunt me until my death
 Keep in mind it's never really easy to
 Confront death over and over and over again
 Nevermind, no point in hesitating
 I'm the only mortal who can
 Can you imagine
 The kind of burden it may be
 To hold this responsibility?
 I never wanted this to begin with
 I'll silence all the hymns with a single glance
 Why was I cursed to be born again
 And again?
 Despite your shy demeanor
 I know you felt what I felt too
 Trading glances too reserved for words
 And my eyes can reciprocate
 What my mind assumes
 We were taught to express this
 Even after 20 years I still hold it deep inside
 20 years can change me but can never
 Change my mind
 I'm undeterrable
 Rewind
 1 minute
 3 minutes
 20 years?