Living the Wasted Life

Is this what's left of me
 I sense a kiss
 it's coming on
 I sense the rift between us
 my fault
 I pray for something
 a quick demise
 something to substitute a restless mind
 call the doctors
 call the gods
 you can't call anyone
 to save me now
 weak is the one who crawls
 lives life behind a wall
 the only question here is
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Is this what's left of me
 debilitated life
 look back and see
 nothing but my self wasted
 is this what's left of me
 what's left will be destroyed
 Is it ever ending my self-hatred
 Is this what's left of me
 debilitated life
 look back and see
 nothing but my self wasted
 is this what's left of me
 what's left will be destroyed
 Is it ever ending my self-hatred
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Your own emotions can be your greatest enemy
 I am the cancer
 I am the cause
 I am the devil
 sitting on my left shoulder
 in this regression
 I'm looking for
 just some attention
 so don't keep me waiting
 without direction
 spread the fault
 searching for something
 just a little less caustic
 for him to sing this song
 seems like for just too long
 I'll follow them and wonder
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 Why can't I ever feel
 I'm quite happy living my life this way
 too fucked up to care anymore
 we've all come from one commiserating
 we just want to feel anything
 Is this what's left of me
 debilitated life
 look back and see
 nothing but my self wasted
 is this what's left of me
 what's left will be destroyed
 Is it ever ending my self-hatred
 Is this what's left of me
 debilitated life
 look back and see
 nothing but my self wasted
 is this what's left of me
 what's left will be destroyed
 Is it ever ending my self-hatred