Overcast

Searching for something
 Walking endlessly
 For what seemed like days
 And if you wait for me
 I'll wait for you
 Grasping to hold on to what I cant see
 It is coming back
 It seems that ive forgotten the way to continue on
 This broken down road
 Push carry on
 I won't pretend
 That this is my life
 Hollow words make paranoid people back down
 This is not this is not this is not control
 I thought that I had control
 I thought I could keep control
 I thought I would want control
 I thought I'd never lose control
 There's no reason for this
 Just please forgive me
 Hoping for something
 Passing time with an endless trail of smoke
 Throat burns
 Choke on cigarettes
 Ashes fall and scatter
 That old familiar blue glow
 Red eyes gaze
 This is not this is not this is not control