Now I'm Forever

Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended
 Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute
 Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin'
 Music took over my life right before I tried to
 Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended
 Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute
 Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin'
 Music took over my life right before I tried to end it
 How could I turn my back on the one damn thing
 That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge
 Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit
 This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living
 You ever feel stuck, inside your own head
 Can't control bad thoughts from filling up
 It's like you stuck inside a big fucking spiral
 And inside you bubble up, immune to bluffing smiles
 'Cause you used to hiding the pain you won't discuss
 You feel like the whole world is after you right now
 It ain't actually, you imagine it like that
 Hard times of your life is happening right now
 Think about it that means that you're passing it right now
 It ain't a punishment trust and
 Believe in the process and stop tryna rush it
 If things gon' be changing that means you're adjusting
 Stop chasing your shot man, I promise it's coming
 I've been silently fighting myself
 Now it's time that I just have to let it out
 Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended
 Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute
 Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin'
 Music took over my life right before I tried to end it
 How could I turn my back on the one damn thing
 That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge
 Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit
 This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living
 Yeah
 Not gon' lie, so many times I wanna quit
 But then I stop and look beyond the pain
 And see I was born for this
 The pain I feel's from God
 I was a sacrifice, it comes from him
 And that's the reason why the things I write
 Is touching lives
 Of all the people who ain't got a voice
 The ones who wake up feeling scared
 Terrified, they see the sun
 And dread they've seen another day
 See it only as an opportunity for fucking pain
 To find its way back in their life
 Makes them beg for heaven's gates
 I always thought that God was against me
 But it was blessings that he always disguised so well
 If I could go back in time, I would embrace all the times
 I felt no stress on my mind 'cause
 Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended
 Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute
 Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin'
 Music took over my life right before I tried to end it
 How could I turn my back on the one damn thing
 That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge
 Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit
 This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living