happy ever after

I swear we talk all the time, feel like an actor
 I got no sense of time, what am I after?
 Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
 Actin' like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
 You know we talked last night, what'd you do after?
 I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
 Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
 I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after
 'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
 I got no sense of time, what am I after?
 Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
 Actin' like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
 When you called last night, I didn't answer
 I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
 Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
 I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after
 And now the sadness turn to anger, what's the matter?
 I served my love upon a platter, but that shit shattered
 You notice how you mind my business, bitch, you're a witness
 All the work I put into this, shit made me lifeless
 Yeah, I see they try to judge me, but are they happy?
 I know they're everything I could be, but I just wanna feel free
 It feels like maybe it's not worth it, I'm just a bother
 I wanna live my life happy ever after
 'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
 I got no sense of time, what am I after?
 Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
 Actin' like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
 And when you called last night, I didn't answer
 I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
 Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
 I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after-
 
 My mind drifts away to a vacant place
 I wanna talk, but it's hard for me, I'm too afraid
 I don't believe in myself, I think that I'm a waste
 You left me broken, yeah, you left me in some disarray
 I know you might think that I'm a fuck-up
 I run my mouth, I can never seem to shut up
 My feelings run away, and I can't seem to catch up
 I'm tryna leave all this stress and all this pressure
 Try to build a wall, but it came crashin' right down
 I'm standin' in my silence, I will not make a sound, no
 All these thoughts go inside of my head, spin around, but
 It's so hard to let my guard back up when it's down
 No feeling in my chest, I can't feel my heart pulsin'
 You know I'm in pain, you already know I'm hurtin'
 There's a hole inside of my heart as deep as the ocean
 Puttin' on an effort so long, I'ma close the curtains
 'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
 I got no sense of time, what am I after?
 Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
 Actin' like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
 And when you called last night, I didn't answer
 I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
 Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
 I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after