I Kinda Don't

It's kinda hard to put my finger on
 What it was in me to make the call
 To call it off
 I didn't even
 Wanna believe it
 I kinda thought I'd have a little more time
 I'd right my wrongs and I'd apologise
 And we'd be fine
 But I didn't
 And it isn't
 And wanna know what really makes this hard?
 You're just as sweet as everybody says you are
 And I kinda wanna hate you
 Kinda wanna be you
 Kinda wish I never had to meet you in this bar
 'Cause now I see what he sees
 You're everything I can't be
 I can't pretend I'm over him
 And seeing you ain't hard
 I kinda hope it works out for you both
 But then again
 I kinda don't
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 I kinda hate that I love those shoes
 And how that lipstick is the perfect shade on you
 It gets to me
 That I wanna buy you another drink
 But every time his name rolls off your lips
 It reminds me you're the reason mine will never be on his
 And I kinda wanna hate you
 Kinda wanna be you
 Kinda wish I never had to meet you in this bar
 'Cause now I see what he sees
 You're everything I can't be
 I can't pretend I'm over him
 And seeing you ain't hard
 I kinda hope it works out for you both
 But then again
 I kinda don't
 I was happier just putting the blame on you
 Now you've gone and took that from me too
 And I kinda wanna hate you
 Kinda wanna be you
 Kinda wish I never had to walk in to this bar
 'Cause now I see what he sees
 You're everything I can't be
 I can't pretend I'm over him
 And seeing you ain't hard
 I kinda hope it works out for you both
 I kinda hope I find the strength to let him go
 But then again
 I kinda don't
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 I kinda don't
 I kinda don't