Listen (feat. Big Hoodoo)

Choking on painkillers stuck in my throat
 13 years old writing suicide notes
 Hiding razor blade scars under my coat
 Got on the internet how to tie rope
 To a noose, domestic abuse it's well written
 You hear "motherfucker" and "die bitch!" from out your kitchen
 When you intervene, your own neck's getting twisted
 To the sound of broken dishes flying all around you bitches
 I don't understand, why would you even have children
 When you live in war-zone and front-line is our buildin'
 Growing up here, I've seen more than I'd like to witness
 Family's throwing fists it's just everyday business
 "Get out," my mamma tells him, she don't noticed me there's too much distance
 I fade back, see you in hell then
 It wouldn't happened if you only just listened
 I'd be alive today, if only you'da heard what I had to say
 Give me the time or day, I probably be alive but I passed away
 For you, to look at me
 For you, to just look at me
 Things really haven't been the same as they just to be
 And she don't think what this shit really does to me
 This motherfucker only thought about his own and when she took em
 Everything fall apart now they're gone
 I tried to tell her what was going on, but she don't wanna listen
 Providing for the family was always been mission
 She ain't the type to stand by and show any support
 Got a letter from my lawyer saying I need to be in court
 For what? You're always fucking screaming at the kids
 Treating em like shit and I can't even begin
 To even think that I won't never see em again
 When you lose it all you think about is getting revenge
 She wanna stab me in the back, I'm gonna catch her alone
 I'm finna to put this bullet in my motherfucking dome
 Tried to help her out, she couldn't stop bitchin'
 Could've been happy if you would've just listened
 Big Hoodoo, I specialize in dead speaking
 The jinx homie quick to leave a haters dead leaking
 Life's fucked up, I feel like I might die tonight
 Smoking on some fireworks, while I'm sniffing dynamite
 Cannibal animals, we learn from Hannibal Lecter
 Dismantle cantaloupes, get rid of bodies like I'm Dexter
 Come from a different texture, I'm a murder expert
 My eyes go black, I pull your ribs out your fucking sweatshirt
 Never had, so I'm thinking death must be nice
 And I'm homicidal, so I'm also thinking "fuck your life"
 Moms told me she gave birth to an evil genius
 Cause she gets pregnant doing drugs, bumping "Kkkill The Fetus"
 My voodoo got em singing "yeah motherfuckers"
 It's Hoodoo swinging with The Garcia Brothers
 Fucked up now we're in our graves reminiscin'
 Of how our lives would be, if the world would've only listened