if I was gay

If I was gay would I be
 What they say, just a stereotype?
 If I was gay how do I get to heaven
 When there's no church in the wild?
 Tried to be honest
 But honestly I can't
 No I can't
 If love is the same
 Why is this not the same thing?
 The same thing
 I've never kissed a boy
 Would I like the way it feels?
 Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me
 Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
 None of them talk about what I feel
 I've never kissed a boy
 I've been trying to fit in
 Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet
 Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
 None of them talk about what I feel
 If I was gay there would be no friends left
 And I don't want that
 If I was gay my mom and dad would treat me
 And I can't handle that shit
 Tried to be honest
 But honestly I can't
 No I can't
 If love is the same
 Why is this not the same thing
 The same thing
 I've never kissed a boy
 Would I like the way it feels?
 Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me
 Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
 None of them talk about what I feel
 I've never kissed a boy
 I've been trying to fit in
 Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet
 Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
 None of them talk about what I feel
 All the time I've wasted trying to replace the
 Part of myself that was keeping me straight
 It just made me a product of it (ah-ah)
 So where do I fit in?
 Nothing can replace the scars on my body
 Can't talk to nobody, I'm numb
 I've never kissed a boy
 Would I like the way it feels?
 Picturing his face and I loose a piece of me
 Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
 None of them talk about what I feel