What Am I Doing to Me?

I try to go to bed early just about every night
 Wanna stop my head from spinning but it's too big a fight
 I give myself up for love and I don't even try
 Tell myself when it's dark just to run and hide
 Count the stairs to my door 'til I am safe inside
 I do everything I can sometimes not to cry
 I hate that I lose my shit
 And I just don't know why
 I hate that I can't even read my own mind
 I've been on fire
 I can't help myself
 Runnin' on wires
 Balancin' over heads
 Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep
 What am I doin' to me?
 What am I doin' to me?
 Ooh
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin' to me?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin' to me?
 Wake up shaking, I'm panicked, sleepin' all the time
 Cracked my phone and I spilled another glass of wine
 My friends keep tellin' me I should take my own advice
 But I made my bed, so that's where I gotta lie
 I've been on fire
 I can't help myself
 Runnin' on wires
 Balancin' over head
 Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep
 What am I doin' to me?
 What am I doing to me?
 Ooh
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin' to me?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin' to me?
 Try too hard
 Don't try enough
 I don't know why I can't get myself to give a fuck
 I'm burnin' down
 No, I can't breathe
 Can someone tell me
 What am I doin' to me?
 Ooh
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin' to me?
 I've been on fire
 I can't help myself
 What am I doin'?
 What am I doin'?
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 What am I doin' to me?