Where I Belong

Why should I have to beg for what is rightfully mine?
 While you sit back and wait for a comet to pass you by
 And you hold out your hands,
 In hopes that a future will fall right out of the sky
 But you will only find dread,
 As months turn to years fading out into hindsight
 Now I watch as the world unwinds
 And I bathe in the moonlight
 Where do I go from here?
 A roadmap of my passing prime
 Full of holes, it erodes, with my soul, and I'm bleeding
 I've been told that it's all just prologue
 The afterlife is waiting for me
 But how do you know?
 When my fate has been on hold for so long
 I grow old, the window starts to close, and I can't...
 Breathe, breathe in and fulfill your purpose
 Reduce the trees to a pile of leaves
 Burn them all to ash 'til you're choking on the answer
 Though you may never be...
 Free, free from the disease that ails us
 Beyond the plague of uncertainty, waits the essence of my new reality
 With each and every trial, I learned how to be strong
 Endow my spirit with the strength to carry on
 I retrace all my footprints back to when I was young
 Until I find the message I've kept buried for so long
 I want it all at once or, I want it not at all
 A truth that leads me to the place where I belong
 Knowledge of death brings us life
 Aging like a fine wine
 Until the well has run dry
 Marking the passage of time
 Need for expression comes in succession
 I'm here to take what is mine
 Nothing to hold me back if I don't feel alive
 And now the planets align
 Drive all my focus into this moment
 Something's in the water
 Just like any monster, it grows, and it grows tenfold
 The frozen ocean is brought to a boil
 Praying at the altar
 Just doesn't compare to getting your own hands dirty
 Reality is a tangible thing
 I retrace all my footprints back to when I was young
 Until I find the message I've kept buried for so long
 I want it all at once or, I want it not at all
 A truth that leads me to the place where I belong
 This is where I belong
 And in my fever dream
 Nothing is as it seems
 So ever-carefully I will roam
 Choices I never made
 Outcomes that I can't change
 Let go of shame, and carry on
 I still carry the spark
 It guides me through the dark
 So in the frigid pain, I will roam
 With burdens in my arms
 I'm dreaming of a star
 Feels like a fantasy
 I'm not asleep