No Sleep

Pushed away with all your might
 Is it bad
 If you want them back?
 So you relied on your hindsight
 You had it all
 But it's all you had
 Dig yourself deeper like a lie
 I'm moving slow
 I'm fast asleep
 Double knotting all the ties
 To the friends I had in 2016
 And the showers brought May flowers to their waiting room
 (Your name in italics a product of habit)
 Vase half full with holy water
 You were holy too
 (A swan song in static so melodramatic)
 And you couldn't put it better with them holding your tongue
 I'll just say I can't remember because I don't like who I was
 Cold to the touch and never warm enough
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 So you've settled on sleeping forever
 Mark my height with pen and measure
 An older soul, was weary in my youth
 No daylight to waste
 No sleep left to lose
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 You looked over my last effort to assert
 (Speak for yourself you have my word)
 No, it's never been quite like me to be firm
 (And even still what's mine is yours)
 'Cause I haven't felt right in such a long time
 And there's no sleep left to lose
 Just fucking static all the time
 And the showers brought May flowers to their waiting room
 (Your name in italics a product of habit)
 Needed a figure like a father just like salt in your wounds
 (A swan song in static so melodramatic)
 You said I wouldn't feel it when you picked me up by the scruff
 Perfect posture starts to bow when the weight piles up
 Cold to the touch and never warm enough
 Warm enough