Ghost

The nightshade of an unspoken matter
 Cutting through me like an internal stabber
 Everyday I bleed out the shame
 Why can't they ever just feel the same
 Close, we were getting so close
 Now I'm hurting the most
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 Close i was getting so close
 Until he went ghost
 Or am I only haunting myself again
 Odds against me stacking higher and higher
 All that I could feel was my heartbeat shatter
 My mental strain pours down me like rain
 His name was never meant to cause me pain
 Close we were getting so, close
 Now I'm hurting the most
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 Close we were getting so close
 Now I'm hurting the most
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 Close i was getting so, close
 Until he went ghost
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 All I did was try
 Swore he'd never lie
 Now its his turn to cry
 Playing reckless games
 With badly wired brains
 A trap at every stage
 All I did was try
 Swore he'd never lie
 Now its his turn to cry
 Playing reckless games
 With badly wired brains
 A trap at every stage
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 Close we were getting so close
 Now I'm hurting the most
 Tell me how did I do this to myself again
 Close I was getting so close
 Until he went ghost
 Or am I only haunting myself again