Expectations

I keep on having this dream where I'm seventeen
 Slipping through the cafeteria trying not to be seen
 I see my brother, he's sitting there with some kids
 He smiles at me and waves, I fake a smile and sit
 Down at the table, but something's off and I know it
 'Cause when I try and say something nobody seems to take notice
 I kinda like it, but then I start to feel strange
 Like the time I went on Amazon to buy myself a date
 When did things get pixelated?
 I can't keep my concentration
 I've lost my imagination
 To such great expectations
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said
 I keep a rolodex inside of my head of
 All the times I had a chance to just be honest, instead
 I made a joke to changed the subject because my confidence said
 "Hey, listen, if you mess this up
 They're gonna judge you, my friend!"
 I'm living in a state of pure paralysis, see
 I like to think, think, think, but my action is weak
 My interaction is bleak, if life's a herd, I'm a sheep
 Guess I'm not really that much different than at age seventeen
 When did things get pixelated?
 I can't keep my concentration
 I've lost my imagination
 To such great expectations
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said
 All of the things we wish we said
 They drag me down until I'm dead
 You say the best is yet to come
 Can anyone figure out what's wrong with us?
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said
 
 I keep on having this dream where I'm seventeen
 Slipping through the cafeteria trying not to be seen
 I see my brother, he's sitting there with some kids
 He smiles at me and waves, I fake a smile and sit
 Down at the table, but something's off and I know it
 'Cause when I try and say something nobody seems to take notice
 I kinda like it, but then I start to feel strange
 Like the time I went on Amazon to buy myself a date
 When did things get pixelated?
 I can't keep my concentration
 I've lost my imagination
 To such great expectations
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said
 I keep a rolodex inside of my head of
 All the times I had a chance to just be honest, instead
 I made a joke to changed the subject because my confidence said
 "Hey, listen, if you mess this up
 They're gonna judge you, my friend!"
 I'm living in a state of pure paralysis, see
 I like to think, think, think, but my action is weak
 My interaction is bleak, if life's a herd, I'm a sheep
 Guess I'm not really that much different than at age seventeen
 When did things get pixelated?
 I can't keep my concentration
 I've lost my imagination
 To such great expectations
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said
 All of the things we wish we said
 They drag me down until I'm dead
 You say the best is yet to come
 Can anyone figure out what's wrong with us?
 All the things that I never said
 They keep crawling back to me
 All the things that I never did
 They still haunt me in my dreams
 All the years I've spent
 All the lives I've faked
 Just to keep myself protected
 From all the things that I never said
 That I never said
 That I never said