discombobulated

Life has got me feelin' discombobulated
 In place of common phrases all I say are awkward statements
 In every conversation
 Often sittin' cautious pacin'
 Droppin' frames in talks with strangers makin' observations
 In that awful cadence
 I've been rather quiet since a sophomore
 Every time my voice comes out my mouth
 It sounds like nails on a chalkboard
 Savin' pieces shattered as my age increases faster
 I can make my thesis matter if I'd learn to fuckin' talk more
 But that's just an inkling small talk is always shrinking
 In this ship we'll all be sinkin' 'til we fill in all the gaps
 I've made some dumb decisions and evaded inhibitions
 Diggin' graves for my ambitions just to make it on the map
 Which seems ironic at present given my title
 Periodically steppin' through this
 recital I've practiced a thousand times
 Messagin' with my idols
 Indefinitley soundin' like a dumbass when I try though
 I treat a soundcloud page like a diary
 And push away all the people who inspire me
 Sorry
 So afraid of the person I should try to be
 And it seems by now they should kinda be
 Sorry