How Long Has This Been Going On?

I was taught that I ought not to expose my inner senses
 Had no plan for a man, I was full of self-defenses
 Now I feel that I really should face the consequences
 My philosophic search has left me in the learch
 I must find why my mind is behaving like a dancer
 What's the clue to pursue? For I have to have the answer
 I could cry salty tears, where have I been all these years?
 "Is it fun or should I run?"
 How long has this been this going on?
 There were chills up my spine and some thrills I can't define
 "Does it show? And who would know?"
 How long has this been going on?
 Oh, I feel that I could melt, into Heaven I'm hurled
 I know how Columbus felt finding another world
 "Can I trust how I feel?"
 Is this my Achilles?
 Look at me, I'm all at sea
 "How long has this been going on?"
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 This is grand, this is great, I'm in such a lovely state
 Can one kiss do all of this?