It Never Felt Like This Before

You can't hear me speak
 'cause I am mute
 I hide too many things
 I need a place to hope
 I need your help to hope again
 You see a laughing boy
 This is not true - only a mirage
 I can't conceal my fear
 I have to be sincere
 [Chorus:]
 There is no way to forget
 I broke your heart when I ran away
 You didn't know what to do
 I was only a stupid boy
 When I look back now
 I never felt so bad
 To know that I've hurt you
 Is worse than to break
 Is worse than everything
 Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless
 I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene
 I'm so afraid of myself
 I'm so afraid of being here
 I say sorry but it's not enough
 I'm so afraid of losing my thoughts
 [Eldron, August 2001]