anesthetized

I just wanted love and i lost
 Every boy i've loved said to take it off
 But with you i never feel sorry
 Cause you never wanted to haunt me
 But if we stay like this
 Will you go break my wrists
 While i'm anesthetized right there in your arms
 And if we said goodbye
 Just know i tried and tried and tried and tried
 But i just never really seem to understand
 Whatcha wanna know cause i hate it when you go so i'd
 Bare my whole soul for you
 Hours on the phone cause you feel more like a home than home
 Like folding clothes, like open doors
 When it gets too dark, you're scared monsters are out
 You're the only boy i care about
 So baby please don't be mad at me
 If i love too hard and get real clingy
 Tell me if i make a mess
 Tell me if i am too much for your head
 Is there someone else you fuck in your bed
 Is there someone else you wanted instead
 Baby don't lie to me, baby don't lie to me
 But if we stay like this will you go break my wrists
 While i'm anesthetized right there in your arms
 And if we said goodbye
 Just know i tried and tried and tried and tried
 But i just never really seem to understand