Nemesis

Breathing is so difficult right now
 Nobody can hear me
 Rest and peace are gone among the silent screams
 In between the lines I've been
 Searching for those memories I wish I could relive
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 Unconscious movements take me to places I've never been before
 Friendly faces never looked as scary as now
 Disconnected mind and soul, aimless wandering, nowhere to go
 Vivid projections or memories resurrected from deep inside?
 My own nature in protest
 (Find)
 I need to find a way to get my life back
 Controlling a massive hate
 Obsessive to stay sober from this reality
 Shifting strategies to try to defraud me
 All in vain
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 Everything feels like it's so numb now
 And all the colors look the same to me
 I can't hear my heart beating today
 I only feel the cold blood passing through my veins
 I chain myself and then release again
 One hand holds me down, while the other's reaching around
 I'm on a to nowhere
 And I am desperate to get there
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 Amputated feelings, undeniable truth
 Burning quietly and growing stronger
 Can't face myself without blaming someone else
 I'm hiding way longer than I thought
 What to do when no prayer's been answered?
 Where to go when I'm not lost?
 Blurry vision, and my hands are shaking
 Red paradise
 I hope I am mistaken
 Could it be this, my nemesis?
 Could this be it my nemesis?
 And I don't have the will anymore to bow before God
 
 No will anymore
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 Try, and realize that it's better just to let it control than to put up a fight
 Willing to renounce everything you believe in
 When you see there's no more humanity
 Close your eyes to see
 You have already lost the game
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 Everything feels like it's so numb now
 And all the colors look the same to me
 I can't hear my heart beating today
 I only feel the cold blood passing through my veins
 Everything feels like it's so numb
 And all the colors look the same
 I can't hear my heart beating
 I only feel the cold blood passing