It's a Slow Crawl to the Finish Line

I want the words to make you understand
 I want some fucking charm, I wanna hold your hand
 I wanna run away, I wanna fucking die
 I want to figure out what's on your mind
 And when I've got nowhere to go I start walking
 Away, away, away, alone
 I'm not too sure and I'm not right
 I'm probably not the type of guy you'd really like
 I'm not done cleaning up the mess I made before
 I'm not ashamed, not anymore
 And since it appears I have to go, I'll just have to find
 A way to face the day alone
 So if you've got nowhere else to go you know where to find me
 Call it a comeback, please come back
 The silence echoes in my head, I don't know what I could have said
 Been losing every single fight,
 But maybe that can change tonight
 'Cause my heart is in my stomach and my stomach's in my throat
 But I'm swallowing my freakout and I'm taking detailed notes
 'Cause every step's a step up when you're down here