StandStill

I need a rest didn't know how long I was beaming
 I've been obsessed didn't know how much teething
 I miss Mac even though I never got to meet him
 I just needed someone else to confront all my demons
 The coils inside this bark been straying
 The coils missing the spark it needs greying
 The toils within the dark in need of praying
 The soil bares the mark it needs laying
 It needs laying
 Trapped in the prison of mind
 Never sought solace cause it's the hardest to find
 I'm just deep inside my mine
 Looking for treasure, no matter how hard I try
 I get suffocated by the darkness
 Inebriated by the vastness
 I'm right here where I am
 In the wind I still stand
 I feel a weight inside my soul
 Feel it slowly taking a toll
 I don't know how long I'll last
 I've shattered this hourglass
 I don't know how long I'll last
 I've shattered this hourglass
 It's crazy that something specific can elate me, upgrade me
 Make me feel there's nothing more amazing
 But lately life's been subverted I hate me
 The very same thing gone aggravate me, berate me
 Feel the insignificance of dithering, I stay quivering, shit's so belittling
 With these words I have can paint a mural
 But as I suffocate realise it's just neural
 Wish I could hit clear all
 To all times past, I call five fast
 Can I live in this world without nothing to prosper
 I look through the events and see you on that roster
 I should build a cage around my heart to
 see the cost of
 Loneliness, Unholiness
 Hunched and defeated like my posture
 Forgot happiness this just an imposter
 Have I lost you
 Have I lost you
 I'm right here where I am
 In the wind I still stand
 I feel a weight inside my soul
 Feel it slowly taking a toll
 I don't know how long I'll last
 I've shattered this hourglass
 I don't know how long I'll last
 I've shattered this hourglass