Abeyance

As the candles yawned,
 My world grew darker
 'Til barely a detail remained
 Parchment and smoke
 Through distant chimes
 Moths carried by the breeze
 Her finger to my lips,
 I am stilled in an instant
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 I sip, and I'm numbed
 From here the path winds backwards
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 At first I see my entering
 And then steps in reverse
 Descent where I had climbed
 To pass where I had fallen
 Familiar, all is frayed
 And yet I cannot abide
 Beyond my eyelids, I have died
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 Days are merging quickly now,
 Into years that spiral from my chest
 They pass but leave no mark
 Familiar, all is skewed
 And yet I cannot reflect
 Beyond my eyelids, I have died
 Yet I collapse into youth
 Familiar, all is frayed
 And yet I cannot abide
 Beyond my eyelids, I have died
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 I swallow forgotten words
 To gain what was lost
 And lose what was gained
 Until neither is real
 Behind my head, her hands hold no weight
 I have reached a beginning,
 But somehow I do not stop
 I fall through the first moment
 To find that there is more
 As light cascades
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 Through the hole my body has torn
 Already, it is closing