Jesus Loves Me

Jesus Loves MeBeacon LightJesus Loves Me is the story of coming to the realization of the love of Jesus. Beacon Light reveals some of the darkest times of his life — being molested which led to sexual confusion and his parent...
 Jesus loves me this I know
 For the Bible tells me so
 Little ones to Him belong
 They are weak but He is strong
 I remember singing Jesus Loves Me at an early age
 I was raised in church since baby words I learned to say
 "Christ loves the little children"
 Repeatedly in my mind
 Red and yellow, black and white
 They are precious in His sight
 But I didn't feel so precious on that day I got molested
 In fact I felt more rejected, neglected, from His protection
 And all these questions started forming in my mind
 Am I gay? Am I straight?
 'Cause it continued
 Often I felt ugly trapped and so ashamed
 I never told a soul
 Because I feared I'd take the blame
 Nobody would ever know
 It was my secret, my pain, my hurt, my shame
 I couldn't let it out
 If I did they'd surely call me gay
 And I remember when they did at the mall that day
 I broke down in tears and simply walked away
 'Cause I remember all those times that other boy had touched me
 And I started wondering if Jesus really loved me
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 The Bible tells me so
 To add to all that mess
 Life at home became a stress
 My parents fought more and more, divorce was what I read
 But they said that they never would
 The Bible said that it was wrong
 So I had hope the Bible would keep them focused to push along
 But eventually, the walls of marriage fell
 Leaving me and my sister exposed to all this hell
 Not to mention my older sister who saw another glimpse
 That maybe the Bible couldn't help you when you tripped
 I was ticked and I was would curse at God
 My family stripped amidst the storm
 My pictures ripped, memories gone
 I shook my fists, looked up to God and said, I don't believe in You You can't be real, What is this trash?
 Molested, I'm abused, my family too?
 And now my Mom and Dad?
 All this pain is bottled up inside, I see the rain, but where's the sun?
 All I see is clouds, and I can't go on
 But I'm a make it through
 And I said to God, I'm gonna do it without You
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 The Bible tells me so
 Alone, that's how I felt
 Handling my problems by myself
 I didn't need God, or so I thought
 But now I felt so empty
 Indulging in the things they said would help me
 Money, sex, and the party life
 That's how I lived
 Education didn't even help with my brokenness
 I kept on being broken with the same pain
 Same strain, running on one leg
 Kept getting the same sprain
 Crippled, looking at a glass lake
 Seeing my reflection in the ripples of the wake
 I was lost and confused, still bottling my pain
 Took that bottle to my brain
 Trying to make it go away
 But I couldn't, I could never escape
 I realized inside only death was my fate, I'm so lost
 Which way to go? I don't know
 All I know is that I need you God to take control
 Please take control and change my ways
 I need to know I'm saved - right now I'm feeling pain
 And when I prayed that, I truly felt a change
 It didn't happen all at once but trust me things did change
 I've never been the same since that day I called on Jesus
 He changed my life, in exchange for chains He gave me freedom
 I've been forgiven of every sin I've ever committed
 Rid me of my ignorance Father and show me how to live it
 I want to be like You, I want to be like You
 I hate this evil inside me, provide me with Your truth
 Because the whole world is surrounded with lies
 I know because I bought into them, they blinded my eyes
 So please renew my mind, renew my soul
 Create a heart that's clean inside me God and make me whole
 I need You more than I need the breath inside of my lungs
 Protect me from evil, I need Your presence to come
 You are holy and amazing and your Spirit's always pure
 You are worthy of the praise because You are the only cure
 Break down the walls of Jericho in Jesus' name we call
 Heal the Sodom and Gomorrah of our generation's fall
 God we need You we've been broken from confusion and abuse
 Sexuality confused, pornography introduced
 It was people who had done me wrong
 But Jesus showed me how to live
 Redemption is what the Gospel is
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 (Redemption is what is the Gospel is)
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 (Jesus show me how to live)
 Yes, Jesus loves me
 The Bible tells me so