Pain in December

I'm from a city where the skinny niggas ride, ain't pretty
 And plenty women lying wind chilly
 Depression got my mind gone
 Need love, send plenty, aye
 I'm falling apart and I cannot deny it
 Why my favorite dreams is the ones I'm finna die in?
 Where is my balance?
 Why is my grip slipping?
 Sometimes I think I'll Cobain myself and slip clips in
 My ego died they say when it's gone
 That's when you in your purest form
 And why I love when the sun gone and appreciate when it storm
 I see the ice falling slow on the window
 She tried to lie say she love me, but she didn't though
 She sent a RPG where my heart at
 It's rated R no PGs where my dreams happen
 This the land of the heartbreak
 Broken dreams on a flannel
 This the aftermath of hurt
 Pain scented candles
 When she walk into my room felt my ghost standing
 Plus I'm awful
 All I know is hurt and panic
 When I look inside the mirror see my demons dancing
 Running from the truth, girl, I'ma need all the answers
 Crutches falling, autumn leaves, uh
 Plus I'm dying, RIP
 I felt the sunshine turn to rain nigga
 I spent days inside and went insane nigga
 I'm from a city where these skinny niggas ride for survival
 That white man looked at me and stared cause I'm tribal
 Long black hair like I'm Samson got power
 Baby girl just stared at me, don't be scared I got power
 Loud ass emotions
 Why I just drown in them
 Tryna turn the sound down inside my mind's prison
 And I can't escape, trapped in this world
 Where they love to see you break
 Pain in December, got ice on my face
 Pain in December, shoot my wings off, I break
 Something you remember, I'm just a broke face
 Late December morning she saw my body by lakes
 Love, guns out, this a war every day
 Cut my heart off and let an angel take my place
 Every day my brain clogs way too much to say
 Make me wanna grip that AR
 And blast out my brains like damn