What's Missing

If I can't pay attention
 I can't think about
 all the things that lead me to doubt
 how much I am in the things that I do
 what's new to me and what I already knew
 but I can't see or hear
 and I need to know if I'm missing something
 But I don't need this in my life right now
 is the last thing to say to me when I don't know how
 to get beyond thinking of things
 that are unimportant like this
 I had no worries when I had no doubts
 courage was something I could live without
 but that's impossible
 when there's something missing
 I don't need to tell you
 take it easy on me
 when that's something I need
 When I had no worries I had no doubts
 at this point that's something I've forgotten about
 like what's missing
 But I would happily give it away
 to know why I never give anything up