Gutted

Well, I was gutted
 Well, I felt soft
 So, I took to drinking
 With the hopes of getting lost
 When you're always losing
 Well, it's hard to see your wins
 When I start using
 And I'm numb again
 Well, I've been highballing
 Through a playground zone
 Though I know there's nothing
 Nothing left for me there no more
 At night I take to walking
 Down lonely dead end roads
 With the hopes one might catch me
 Well, God knows I won't
 I often think I could hop on plane
 And it all go away
 But I'd be a fool to think my burdens
 Are something I don't carry
 For I can't leave them at the gates
 With the rest of my worries
 They might not see me for a while
 For I've gone in a hurry
 They might not see me for a while
 For I've gone in a hurry
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 My name is something
 That my parents gave to me
 Well, lately I disassociate
 When it's hollered out at me
 Well, I've been tangled up in, the dichotomy
 Well, in the notion of the disbelief
 That what will be will be
 I often think I could hop on plane
 And it all go away
 But I'd be a fool to think my burdens
 Are something I don't carry
 For I can't leave them at the gates
 With the rest of my worries
 They might not see me for a while
 For I've gone in a hurry
 They might not see me for a while
 For I've gone in a hurry