Using Again

I'm living low down and I am using again
 I'm hating my name 'cause I'm cursed like my kin
 And if I should see you before I'm condemned
 I hope you're deceived by the webs that I spin
 And I wish I was who I appear
 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror
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 Lost deep inside of my dirty old soul
 Some starry-eyed boy never taught self control
 The cost of my living was more than I planned
 So I held the needle like a gun in my hand
 And I wish I was who I appear
 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror
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 The memories I've got torture my head
 And I don't know God but I heard he was dead
 And if I am wrong and in judgement I stand
 I will not repent 'cause I don't give a damn
 You can send me to Hell with the rest of my friends
 And I wish I was who I appear
 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror
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 I'm living low down and I am using again